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| Sunday, December 18th, 2005
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12:00 am - Snapping Off The Highs.
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So, 30 hours into Lynchburg and I'm already wondering what I'm going to be doing during this break. I'm here for quite a while, I return to UVA on the 15th (a Sunday). Classes don't start until the 18th, so it will be 3 days of ... I don't really know what. Something along the lines of gooing out a lot and late, late nights. And probably Vodka, too. May I make a recommendation? Ok, I think I will. There's this lovely soda that comes in litres only called Wink. You can find it sometimes on the soda aisle, sometimes by the mixers and ginger ale. Anyhow, mix this super-sweet-80s-fab soda with some nice vodka. Ta-da, "Hoodwink" (naming courtesy of Ben and Beau), possibly one of the best things I've ever drank.
So, I changed my major to Architecture. I feel like I will go through with this all the way (i.e. - not change my major again). Which would mean that I'd be locked into doing some graduate work in order to be NAAB certifiable because UVA's program is a four year pre-grad studies program. Honestly, this doesn't bother me because I love being in school. It's like, why would I want to go out and get a job when I could be "working" in school? I hope I make the transfer alright, my GPA from first semester is goign to be right around a 3.0, luckily being internal, that's a good GPA. If I was coming from another college, I'd be fucked. People don't understand just how difficult UVA is. Every single person I go to school with was that asshole who aced the tests when you were struggling to get by (yeah, sometimes I was that asshole XD). But, seriously, when you go to school with people who were ALL near the top of their class, it's quite the shock when you see people getting grades other than As. They start to freak out. Several of the girls in my suite got Cs and Ds in their classes, and these are all like REALLY intelligent girls. First semester culture shock and all included, I think most of us will do significantly better second semester. I'm excited for the change. As it is it looks like my courses will be as follows...
ARH 106 - Architectural History: Renaissance to Modern
ARCH 102 - Lessons in Making (Design Course)
PHYS 106 - The Physics of How Things Work II (Electromagnetics & Nuclear Energy)
FREN 201 - Intermediate French I
CS 101 - Introduction to Computing
Yeah. I'm pretty excited. I feel like I need to take at least one CS class because I am such a huge fucking geek sometimes. I mean, does anyone else sit around and look up DOS commands and execute them for fun? And while we're talking about geekiness, I think I'm getting "802 IEEE" tattooed on my sternum (right below where the center of my bra is). Probably get the 802 centered overtop of the IEEE. If you don't know what that means, Google it, or don't worry about it. It's my tribute to what I love. People get tattoos all the time, and I've contemplated it for a while, but I knew I wanted to get something meaningful. I didn't know what though, but when we had the blackout in Charlottesville on Thursday night, it came to me and I knew that was what I wanted. Something simplistic and where probably few people will see it. It's for me, afterall. I feel like the whole process will cost around $100, so I'm going to wait until around the beginning of February when the cash flow is pretty high so I won't really notice the dent in my account. I've also been thinking about getting either a surface piercing on the backs of each of my wrists, or three down the back of my neck. That'd be like, towards the end of this spring though. Either way, I have to think about it pretty hard before I spend that much money and poke holes all over my skin. :)
The way I look at it, you're only alive for a short amount of time and you're only young enough to be wild and chase after your whims for a mere fraction of that time. The most important thing in my life right now is to get through school successfully. Aside from that, it's during the next six or seven years that I get to live without real responsibilities, live freely, try new and different things, develop as a person, and have the experiences that when I'm older I won't be able to. What a progressive philosophy, yeah? I love it.
And now, I'm off...
::hits simstim switch::
current mood:  awake
current music: The Essential Mixes - Sasha Live on Ableton || 22.05.2005
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| Friday, December 16th, 2005
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2:40 am - Check.
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End of my first semester at UVA.
What a trip.
I feel like I should update more frequently. But, in order to accurately update, I feel like I would have to recap the last 6 months of my life which isn't really possible. And anyone who's reading knows enough anyhow. Augh. Anyhow. This afternoon is goodbye, Charlottesville. Seriously. It's been wild here.
Go to college. Srsly.
current mood:  content
current music: David Gahan - Dirty Sticky Floor (JXL Vocal) | Oakenfold Mix
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| Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
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3:58 pm - Best Conversation EV4R -or- Hi, I'm Still Alive.
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Me: Caroline, are you having a crisis?
Caroline: YES!
Me: Ugh! Me too!
XTina: Why are you having a crisis RP?
Me: Fucking Commerce test.
Caroline: FUCK YOU! At least you GO to Comm!
Me: FUCK YOU! I'm sick!
XTina: FUCK EVERYONE! Let's all fail out and go to Tech or something!
All: HAHAHAHAHA.
current mood: crazy
current music: 50Cent - Just a Little Bit
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| Monday, January 24th, 2005
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6:41 pm
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current mood: happy
current music: J Majik - Solarize
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| Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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10:38 pm - FREEZE PLEASE!
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It seems so unreal that Christmas Break is in 7 days. I guess that's because it's like 50F everyday. I'm really sick of this warm weather. I'd like it to snow. I'd like to see my breath every morning walking to my car. I'd love to break out the ice scrapers... More than anything I just want to see some snow. Nothing can describe that feeling when that first snowfall comes...it's just like WOW.
Nothing too much exciting lately. Carol and I are getting together a CHRISTMAS COCKTAIL soiree for next Saturday. It's at Carol's December 18, from 6 til ???... hope to see you there... we will have a PACKED house. Yeah... and it's invitation-only, because we are seniors and we are cool that way.
This was going to be a much better entry. Sorry.
The cell calls...
really.
Ciaociao.
current mood:  restless
current music: Harry Connick Jr - Christmas Jazz of Sorts...
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| Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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12:00 am - Lucky 7
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Sometime wanna be your lover
Sometime wanna be your friend
Sometime wanna hug ya
Hold hands, slow-dance while the record spins
Opened up your heart 'cause you said I made you feel so comfortable,
Used to play back then, now you all grown-up like Rudy Huxtable
I could be your buck, you could beat me up,
Play-fight in the dark, then we both make up...
Why you got me so messed up?
I've known you for a long time
But fuckin' never crossed my mind,
But tonight, I seen somethin' in ya,
That made me wanna get wit 'cha,
But you haven't been nothin' but a friend to me...
That's a good song. Just downloaded it. The lyrics are straight, these have been slightly altered to represent some sort of civilised English... but it's a good song... Usher is whooaa.
Everyday I'm so glad for everyone I've truly got
and so much more ready to get away from EVERYTHING here.
I <3 UVA.
Charlottesville was too good to leave for good. Sometimes I close my eyes, and I pretend that I still living down Route 1 on Afton Mountain. I imagine that much simpler life out in the country. I imagine all the long drives to Charlottesville down the winding roads. I remember holding Danny's hand at the bus stop because we were afraid of our first day of school. I remember sinking into the mud in the creek with Matthew, and having to wear his spiderman underwear all day. I remember all the parties we had together since we had the same birthday. I remember getting made fun of because I wore Osh Kosh clothes... and then Osh Kosh was cool. I remember driving by Scott Stadium on Saturday afternoons and watching the football games from the car window. I remember eating TCBY yogurt every Tuesday - without fail - with my dad. I remember the times we ate at the first outlook on Skyline Drive. I remember my parents best friends, Jay and Millie, and the thousands of stepping stones are their supercool house, and the dancing Grateful dead bears on Jay's brand new truck. I remember Millie braiding my hair into pigtails just like hers. I remember answering the phone call from Jay and hearing his voice like I'd never heard it before. I remember my mom closing her door and crying all night, because Millie had cancer. I remember when my mom drove me up to this one spot on Skyline Drive to tell me that Millie was dead. I remember her giving me the note from Millie that said she wanted me to keep the stuffed bear we had given her in the hospital, so that I would remember her when I was older, and I still have it in my bed everynight to this day. I remember crying everytime I heard Seal playing on the radio for a long time, because that's what played when I heard the news in the car. I remember the funeral they had off Skyline Drive for her, and how my Dad didn't go because he didn't want to say goodbye to her. I remember tofu cupcakes. I remember the day Matthew moved to California, because his parents were getting divorced. I remember the horses that I rode. I remember the bull that chased Heidi and I across our land. I remember the hunters that came to our property, and the orange hat I had to wear when I played outside in the fall. I remember swinging on our tree swing, and thinking about how the word ketchup reminded me of the word English. I remember crashing our brand new lawn mower into the cement well. I remember our irish setter, Tayler, chasing deer, and I remember deer chasing our irish setter. I remember the day my mom shot a snake in her birdhouse with a shotgun. I remember the day I said I was running away from home, and I went 50 yards from the house with a Mexican blanket and some peanut butter, and stayed there til dark. I remember when I broke my dad's guitar, and my mom asked me to tell him, and I ran away. I remember the days we went to Carter Orchard near Monticello and picked apples, how the cool wind always chilled me to the bone, and how hot apple cider could fix any problem in the world. I remember my dad taking me to play at the park at Pantops. I remember reaching through the chainlink fence at the park and finding a golf ball. I remember my complete fascination by the doorhandles at Bodo's Bagels being shaped like giant bagels. I remember Chesapeake Bagels, and getting a green gumball from the machine so we got a dozen bagels free. I remember taking Jay out to lunch with my mom, and she closed his hand in the car window. I remember the day my dad was talking on the phone, and I figured out we were moving, I couldn't stop crying all night. I remember my dad trying to explain to me how Sperry Marine wasn't owned by the same people anymore, and they didn't do the work he did anymore. I remember having to clean the house all the time, because people came to tour it. I remember trying to sell that house on our own for 18 months, and finally meeting the people who were going to buy it. I remember hating those people for taking my house. I remember the day my dad painted over the bears on my wall, and I was sad. I remember carving my name on a beech tree way up the mountain on our property. I remember walking over the bridges at the creek for the last time. I remember selling out Ford tractor. I remember my dad hardly ever being at home those 18 months because he commuted from C-Ville to Raleigh and Lynchburg. I remember the tornado that uprooted an oak tree at our house that was more than 100 years old. I remember growing watermelons and pumpkins. I remember trick-or-treating at the ruritan. I remember "bebos" at the "Paper Store" on Sunday mornings, and how the same man always worked there, and he wore shorts - didn't matter if it was -20F outside. I remember the cloudy day we packed up and drove away for the last time. I remember waving goodbye to my house like the little kid I was. I remember the dreams I still have about moving back to C-Ville. I remember leaving all my friends. I remember saying goodbye to Danny, and how we both cried and promised to write, and we did, as faithfully as two 8 year olds can. I remember promising I would go back to my house someday and see it and everything I left. I never did.
Someday.
Ciaociao.
current mood: blah
current music: Bruce Springsteen - Secret Garden
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| Saturday, December 4th, 2004
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11:35 pm - Longest Saturday Ever.
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Today I took 3 SATII tests. Last SAT-anything forever! After SATIIs went and got a new moto. It is so cute. Luckily my 2yr contract was up this month, so it didn't cost that much considering it's a moto just released this week. Cell phones are so complicated.
Watched the Tech-Miami game. As much as I am Wahoo now, I cannot forget my ROOTZ yo. It's completely awesome that everyone has been so down on Big East teams in the past calling the conference the Big Least, and what happens? A coupla Big East schools join the ACC, and who is playing for the title? Ex-BE teams! Suck on that for a bit.
So. Senior trips... everybody is planning one. Some people have a million places to go, or a million people to go with. Everyone's got a schedule they have to accomodate, and drama about who can go and who cannot go. Who this person absolutely cannot stand, and who that person cannot go without. Well my senior trip is better than your's! And I'm going to tell you all about it right now, because Carol planned it all out so nicely. Just the two of us, because we know it will be a blast, because neither of us give a rat about much of anything except partying all week.
So. Prior to our date of departure (June 14) we will travel to Washington DC and spend the night there. In the morning we shall depart on the second half of our journey to NYC, about 4 hours away. "Wow, NYC sure will be fun!" you say. Well yeah, but who cares about New York. Errm... not us? We are just getting started on our 8-day Eastern Caribbean cruise which departs that darling Big Apple at 4 o'clock. Then it's just the open ocean... for EIGHT DAYS.
Tue - New York, NY
Wed - Day at Sea
Thu - Day at Sea
Fri - San Juan, Puerto Rico!
Sat - St. Thomas, US Virgin Islands!
Sunday - Tortola, British Virgin Isles
Monday - Day at Sea
Tuesday - Day at Sea
Wednesday - New York, NY
Yippeeeee.
Ciaociao.
current mood: cheerful
current music: Requiem for a Dream....
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| Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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12:02 am - Darling December!
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December is finally here... although now it is barely December 2, as I write. Today was a good day, with the exception of my CE grade. I just feel that it's way off, and I can't change it. That class does irk me, I blew out of school today when it was over because I was just so frustrated. On the way home I just drove - I didn't look at the speedometer, I just went. Driving is therapeutic to me, I just enjoy it immensely. I got home, and still had a lot of angry energy, and no good way to channel it... so I went and ran on the treadmill. I'm not supposed to do anything til this week is over, but I didn't care, I was just so angry, and I wanted to do something productive with all the pentup "stuff" inside of me. Resultantly, I figured out why I'm not supposed to be doing anything, as my ribs started aching during/after my run. They are still tender now, much more than they were prior to my exercise, but the pain is subsiding, and that's good. At least I know I'm better, sort of.
Today I did all of my AP Calculus diorama. For projects done outside of class, I really do prefer to do things myself. Like our PhysII bridge project. When Mike was being a shit, and I couldn't get with him to do our project, I did it myself. I was so happy with the fact that I did it all myself, that I changed the design as I went along the construction process, and most of all it held the most without losing structural integrity (Carol's and Kyle's held the most overall, while mine experienced structural failure eventually, their's did not). That explains why Kyle, Carol, and myself will be delving into our next PhysII project of Aerodynamics & Hydrostatics as a threesome. With rare exceptions, such as that 3-way team, I would rather do projects myself. Perhaps it is my ultra-high and sometimes ridiculous standards that I hold my work to. I don't want to do crappy projects. I can't remember many posters or presentations or projects that I didn't come in with that someone didn't say "Wow!" or something, y'know? I trust myself to get stuff done, and I feel more accomplished when I do it alone. Group work is fun, and collaboration is awesome, but at certain times, I'd rather do it my own. Mehbleh.
Thanks to Aube, I now have in my binder, all the notes for the US section of our AP Gov't class. It only took me like 2384923749 pieces of paper - but hey, it was way worth it - I'm never taking notes again in there. The most I might have to do is add an adendum or two to what I've got. Props to Fezz for finding the home of our notes. It all finally came together that Mrs. Aube is the lamest excuse for a teacher ever (she has beaten RICHEY! At least he knows the material; he is simply incapable of actually "teaching") when she explained a major typo in today's notes with "I was just typing so fast, y'know..."
I think she meant to say that she never reads these notes... because the exact typo - verbatim - was in the online version of the notes. WAY TO GO AUBE! You bold-faced liar, you!
In closing... here is a great song by Sting "Ghost Story" (apologies for clogging f-pages)
I watch the Western sky The sun is sinking
The geese are flying South It sets me thinking
I did not miss you much I did not suffer
What did not kill me Just made me tougher
I feel the winter come His icy sinews
Now in the fire light The case continues
Another night in court The same old trial
The same old questions asked The same denial
The shadows closely run Like jury members
I look for answers in The fire's embers
Why was I missing then That whole December
I give my usual line: I don't remember
Another winter comes His icy fingers creep
Into these bones of mine These memories never sleep
And all these differences A cloak I borrow
We kept our distances Why should it follow I must have loved you
What is the force that binds the stars I wore this mask to hide my scars
What is the power that pulls the tide I never could find a place to hide
What moves the Earth around the sun What could I do but run and run and run
Afraid to love, afraid to fail A mast without a sail
The moon's a fingernail and slowly sinking Another day begins and now I'm thinking
That this indifference was my invention When everything I did sought your attention
You were my compass star You were my measure
You were a pirate's map A buried treasure
If this was all correct The last thing I'd expect
The prosecution rests It's time that I confess: I must have loved you.
current mood: pleased
current music: Sting - Russians
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| Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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2:17 am - Good Morning Sunshine!
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This entry is for Aaron. He gets the Lifetime Awesomeness Award for bringing a light of goodness to a dim and dark cave of AP Gov't work!
RezQme88: well michelle.....let me express fuzzy feelings that can only be felt when you and another person are the only people online in the world at 1 am and you're so incredibly grateful for the other persons existence b/c otherwise you would be alone on your ass, (and that you're usually the person that im up late with) and that you are a cool dude, michelle. And even if we're pissed at eachother b/c we hate the other person's bestfriend or if we're just pissed at eachother or if we're 5.3574 hours apart or if we just havent talked in 10 years, that i will always be glad to listen to any problems or rantings that you have to talk about or rant about, and that i will do everything i can to help you make them better or just help you completely forget about them...
I know...grab a tissue, it's sweet =P
Here's to Lifetime Awesomeness!
Ciaociao.
current mood:  cold
current music: Jazzupstarts - All the Way to the Top
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| Sunday, November 28th, 2004
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8:50 pm - There is (no subject).
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This weekend has been fabulous, I do say. From UVA, to going out everynight, to not working at all - it's been wonderful. It's quite a shame, I believe, that tomorrow I will be dumped into that place called Jefferson Forest - stripped of my warm and fuzzy blanket of euphoria. The only consolation to this is that only 15 blessed school days remain between now and Christmas Holiday. Holy Maria, thanks be to You for that!!
Might I suggest if you are famished sometime... partake of the rack of lamb at Neighbor's Place (cooked medium). Simply orgasmically delicious. Also, this dish is best served with a bit of Alyson Butler on the side; grand company - she is.
I have a giant AP Gov't takehome test on Mexico due Tuesday. I can't actually bring myself to do it. At first glance, the assignment looks like 6 mere essay questions, each one yielding perhaps a paragraph response. But, examine the assignment more closely and you will see that it is actually more along the lines of six semester exam assignments. GAY! This subject seems to be lighting up blogs everywhere - I could not be left in the dark!
Last night after Alyson and I were out of things to do in the Burg, and found it only 9 or such... we rang Aaron. Jetted over to his house, where we found company with Deis and Kristen K. I must say that visit did open my eyes. I very much enjoyed my time with Kristen, contrary to how I thought I would feel. This misconception existed only because of the lack of time spent with her (read - none), and enough ignorance to fool myself into believing I knew about her, when I did not. I try not to judge people, especially when I know nothing about them... I'm glad my mind opened long enough for this view of Kristen to seep in. Day by day, I do believe my inveterate beliefs/ill habits are fading away. Pray that this continues, for sure. Blah, blah, blah - it was a fun night, and a definite (welcome) change from the normal scenery.
Last night I watched the Pact - this made for TV movie about this couple in high school, about my age, who made a suicide pact. It was a good movie, I thought... shame they showed it at 2:30am, when only insomniacs such as myself, would have seen it. There was this one part in it where the mother of the deceased girl (Emily), was reading her daughter's diary. It prompted some thinking, that along with the realization that 9 months from yesterday will be my very first day at UVA. So close. We are so close.
By the way... anyone up on Copyright laws lately...
because Erica Aube in in violation of a whole slew of 'em.
Seeing as all her notes, can be found on copywritten webpages, verbatim.
Maybe that is why she knows nothing about ANY of our material.
I'd like to thank Mrs. Wood, from Princeton HS in Princeton, NJ for her detailed analysis of Mexico. I bet you can answer your students questions. Oh, I'd also put money on it she doesn't have a headache, or isn't "ill" everyday.
Wow. I miss+love Darrell White!!!! =\
Ciaociao.
current mood:  mellow
current music: James Brown - Tighten Up (Nip/Tuck Mix)
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| Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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11:05 pm - Honey, It's Time for a MAKEOVER!
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I just finished reformatting Tabitha's livejournal. I think it turned out pretty well. Doing all the HTML formatting, changing the system style and the hex color codes was quite the task. When Tabitha was finally satisfied with the colors I had chosen, it was nice to see it all put together. I often change my layout...which I guess is why Tabitha asked me to do her layout. So many people's journals are PLAIN JANE. Not cool... I'll fix it for you :)
I emailed back and forth with Kip today. I cannot begin to express the amount of happiness it brought to me to finally apologize to him. It was just something I had been needing to do, and now that it was he who initiated conversation, I felt it was the right time.
I have no idea what I am doing the rest of this break, but I do hope to get to C'ville before school is back in on Monday. Maybe going out with Alyson after dinner. I'll just see how things go tomorrow.
Still can't believe I'm in UVA.
I'm going to fail life now... school is going to go downhill fast! :)
Oh well.
Ciaociao.
current mood:  creative
current music: Sting - A Thousand Years
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1:37 pm - Turkey Yay.
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Happy Thanksgiving everyone! So much to be thankful for.
Looking forward to an excellent weekend, and some excellent FOOTBALL!!
Take care everybody! <33
Ciaociao.
current mood: hungry
current music: Dave Matthews Band - Hello Again (new & unreleased!)
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| Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
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7:48 pm - WHO'S A HOO?!
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WAHOOWAH!!!!!!!!
HERE I COME UVA!</font>
So check off that #1 on my Things To Do list! YEEE!
Thanks to everyone for the congratulations and good lucks! <33
Ciaociao!
current mood:  WAAAY STOKED!
current music: Hondy - No Access (Nip/Tuck Mix)
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| Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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9:06 pm - "And I've Been Waiting For This Moment, For All My Life"
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So today was rainy again. I do love the rain. My not so good day turned into a great day, and that made the rain even better. I had a calculus test today, not even the 6-weeks test but a make-up test, and it just thoroughly frustrated me that I could not solve the last problem. That, added to the coldness of my feet and the lateness of my arrival to school made me an unhappy camper. However in College English I did fabulously on my quiz and in Physics II my bridge did super-great... so the day was recovered. I am still not able to play in band, and I am actually missing it. I told Webb I should be good to go 10 days after my diagnosis... but that's definitely not going to happen, I apparently was a little over-zealous in my hopes of recovery... the doctor did say 15-20 days... but I mean, having gone to medical school and all, I thought I'd be better sooner :) Such is life.
This afternoon was kind of weird. I was talking to my mom and she just like burst into tears talking about me leaving and going to college. Like WHOA - hold up. It's only November (although I find out about ED apps TOMORROW ::gasp::) don't freak out. I'm going to be around for awhile. I guess, perhaps, empty-nest syndrome is already taking hold of my house? I don't know what to do about it... because like the rest of the Class of 2005 across the UNIVERSE - we are ready and rarin' to get out! Talking of school, I have so much make up work to do before tomorrow, it's not even funny. But I needed to destress after the craziness at my house, so I rang Johnathan and we went out. It was nice to just chill... went to Macado's then Starbucks. I do enjoy being with him, just being "marnty" and all... erm.
This weekend I don't know what I'm doing...maybe working at Texas Steakhouse... I'm supposed to finish my like week-long application process tomorrow with my second interview - this time with the GM, Jim. However, I have a doctor's appt. tomorrow, so I need to reschedule my interview... I hope that goes ok? I'm a little bit nervous. I need a job.
In other randomness... I was listening to Ave Maria by Schubert (I really hope I remembered right) last night, and I was just struck by the beauty of it. So I looked up the words to Ave Maria (since it's traditionally sung in Latin) and found it to be an age-old prayer. I was inspired to memorize it... but I figured it'd be best to do so in English first. I think it's a beautifully simple prayer, and I do like it much. Maria is obviously Mary, but I think it should stay Maria...that's typically how it is in most translations anyhow.
Hail Maria
Full of grace
The Lord is with thee
Blessed art thou amongst women
And blessed is Jesus
The fruit of thy womb
Holy Maria
Mother of God
Pray for us sinners
Now and in the hour of our death
Amen.
I'm hoping to have it learned in Latin by the end of this week. It's just intriguing to me.
Another intriguing thing... today I was editing some of my profile here on LJ, and I noticed a new name on my friends list - Kip. That's very strange. So I read some entries, and in one from today he mentions wanting to talk to me again, that I seem like a much more positive person now. I had sort of abandoned actually ever talking to him again, given the events of the past 4 months or roundabouts which had so inclined me to believe that in his eyes I was the root of all things evil. That's at least what I heard. I kind of accredit my change to him. Not for him, but by means surrounding him, is what encouraged the change. I look back now, and laugh at how I was... "ridiculous" would sum it up appropriately in my mind. I see who I am now, and everday I see wonderful things that have resulted from the changes I have and continue to undergo. Maybe actual closure in my mind regarding Kip is something that will result from this. I'm not sure. I'm not in a rush, and will probably just wait for him to come to me if he wishes to talk. I will never force anything in regards to Kip ever again. I just won't do it, I learned all summer long that it didn't help anything.
That was much more indepth than I intended that little sidenote to be. Oh well.
Tomorrow... the fun begins x4!
I am thankful for so much, and I give all the love in the world to my friends and loves. You are all the world to me, and God had blessed me with each and every one of you. Thank you for loving me when I was unlovable, tolerating me when I was untolerable, comforting me when I needed it, helping me when I was down, and being my everything. <3
And because text-only is no good...here is goofy me with overly red hair + Photoshopness.
Ciaociao
current mood:  anxious
current music: Phil Collins - Sussudio
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| Saturday, November 20th, 2004
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3:55 pm - Hey YOU.
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PLEASE!!! Go here... Prevent Reinstitution of the Draft
Sign it... ok? It will take you like 10 seconds... and it's neat.
Do it.
So, you did? Wow! Now you are WAY cool.
Ciaociao.
current mood: cold
current music: Tupac & Biggie - Runnin'
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| Thursday, November 18th, 2004
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5:11 pm - Yeeeeuh. That's RIGHT.
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Today was excellent. I managed to get all my makeup work in order, and due in a reasonable amount of time. I missed three days of school because of a lovely case of maladies associated with Costochronditis and Pericarditis. I'm feeling pretty decent, still the occasional sharp pain and such in my heart, but my breathing is almost back to 100%... I just have to take it easy for a week or so to make sure everything heals up right...apparently after your first case, reocurrences are very common and you become very susceptible to them. I sure hope that's not the case for me. This is a pain.
I did get the chance to watch a couple good movies over the past few days... The Recruit, which I had already seen, and Spy Game... both were awesome. I really dig spy/CIA movies. Mostly at home though, I just layed around... yeah, a blast I know.
I'm so glad it's almost Thanksgiving Break. Moving into Christmas... I love Christmas and everything about it. I'm definitely excited. Partying... lots of time with the crew and such. Maybe some NINJA ACTION!? Chris and I were hanging out after school today, and he mentioned that he might be getting a fucking NINJA. I would absolutely die... and we would get married ASAP.
So much random guy stuff going on lately... Tabitha and I are getting work done. =D It's good being a senior...y'know how it is. Love ya girrl!
This is the most boring and incoherent entry ever, and with that I say
Ciaociao.
current mood: Chill
current music: Tupac - In the Air Tonight
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| Saturday, November 13th, 2004
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9:48 pm - "I Need A Hit, Baby - Give Me It"
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So as usual, the end of the week brought goodness. I jetted to Alyson's on Friday and we headed out towards the 'Burg. We intended on going to the mall and Candler's Station to just browse around and get out of Forest. Since we were in no rush, we took the Expressway/Rivermont Ave to get to where we were going... drove by Scott's place in Boonsboro, even though we knew he was going to be out until later. Eventually ended up at Candler's and just perused the shops, ran into Kelly & Kyle who were out clothes shopping. Alyson got a call from Scotty, so we met him and Jordan at Sundae Grill before all going out to see Anacondas. That was a damned crazy movie, even crazier when Scott kept scaring the absolute janx out of me. Leave it to guys, yeah... Good times.
Today went over to Carol's, met the crew and rolled to Amherst to cheer on our JF girrrrrls! 3rd in Region III and headed to STATES! Thatta way. It was a hott competition, epecially when Brookville got their over-inflated egos burst with a 4th place finish. Ouch. Headed back to the 'burg and watched some Miami/UVA action.
Tomorrow, churching at LWBC with Jessica and Tabitha, then home to do a little CE, and then shopping a la discounts at the mall... clothes like WHOA. Alyson and I are both picking up angels and shopping for them, too... 'cause we are sweet girls that way. This weekend is going to be waaay too short, I can tell. I'm going to pretty much miss all of school on Wednesday because of my senior pics at Hubbards, too... conveniently, I'll be absent for my PhysII & AP Calc tests.. yaaah. That's all for now, but because the text-only-ness of my last few entries is so lame...
Check out the hottness of THIS bitch... makes me all crazy inside...
Oh baby.
The 04 Aprilia RST Futura
AAAAAAND... picture of my tall blonde babes <33 my majors
Ciaociao!
current mood: JACKED UP
current music: Ying Yang Twins - Salt Shaker
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| Friday, November 12th, 2004
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6:36 pm - Thus Concludes the Worst Week...
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No week has ever been so LAME. Nothing particularly was wrong, it just SUCKED. Thursday held a lovely run-in (literally) with my girr Saddam. Just more inconvenience and GAYNESS to my week. Luckily, I am going out with Saddam tonight just as soon as she finishes kissing-ass at home... In order to quell my serious case of impatience, here for no one's reading pleasure but my own is the beginnings of my ( Life's To-Do List )
Ciaociao
current mood: cold
current music: Lloyd Banks - On Fire
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| Monday, November 8th, 2004
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10:17 pm - Mmmm Philosophical Musings.
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(If you don't want to read my rather negative opinion on my home, then DON'T read this)
I always wondered if Monday was part of the weekend... like if the weekend was three days instead of two, if Tuesday would be so horrible as Monday now... Today reaffirmed my hatred of Mondays and I'm not even sure why... I got a great grade on my AP Calc test that I really needed, I finished my APGov't work in class, understood my P2 lesson... it was good stuff all across the board. Perhaps my cynicism regarding Mondays stems from the lingering sweetness of weekends past, and knowing it's five days at the gulag before I rest again. Alyson wrote about the need to just get out today. I think a lot of us are getting there. Everytime I walk out the door to go to school, I wish it was the last trek to JF I'd ever make. That place has got me so jaded. I look at the freshman there, the ones still in awe over a football game, spazzing over who gets carnations at Homecoming, and staring in disbelief at all the upperclassmen who "dare" to talk on their cell phones during school. It's hard to believe we were all that damn naive once. To think that no one broke the rules, and to think that everyone actually cared.
What are we supposed to do for the next 9 months?
I feel like I've "outgrown" some part of home. I don't need anyone to tell me when to stop talking on the phone, or tell me to get up in the mornings. I am aware of what time it is, I don't need people to say it's ____o'clock, better get a move on. I don't need to be home at 10 on a schoolnight, and I don't need to be home before 11 on the weekends. I don't need to call my parents everytime I go a mile from where I was. Doesn't anyone understand that in 9 months we will be on our own FOREVER basically? We need to start having these freedoms NOW, so we can learn to deal with them. Let us make our screwups at home, not at college when we're making up the rest of our lives. I wish I could just have one weekend that I could go and do whatever, and not have to make one phone call all night, not look at the clock compulsively... but just LIVE. Wow, that would be nice. 23 days until I hear from UVA. Wow.
Tomorrow holds some sort of promise... I'm going to the mall to apply for some seasonal jobs, y'know try to pick up some extra cash. I mean, clothes, gas, school stuff, car, my parents pay for all of that. I just need money to have fun with. Basically, just a fuckaroundfund. Hopefully I'll get something...
Also be going to Y after school tomorrow... finally getting into a routine now that Fall is behind me... today's workout was good - just me, Jay-z, and an hour of cardio. Hott.
Prayers for Tabitha and her interviews tomorrow :)
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Dave Matthews - Stay or Leave
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